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The “New Nurse Blues.”

It’s been almost 3 months since my last post.

Time is flying by. Seriously. Slow the eff down.

I don’t know how many of you work in hospitals that have a BSN residency program, so (before I get into anything else) I am going to explain the concept. Basically, I have to meet once a month with all of the other BSN nurses who were hired around the same time to bitch about our jobs. Crazy right? And, I even get paid to do it. It is seriously the biggest. joke. ever. But, whatevs. The true purpose is to support the transition from student to practitioner. So, sometime around our second or third seminar, we discussed the “new nurse blues.” Anyone else familiar with this term? We were told that sometime around the 6 month mark, most graduate nurses start to really reconsider their career choice. They start asking questions like, “Why did I want to do this?”, “Will it ever get any better?”, “When will I feel like I actually know what I’m doing?”, and “Was all that schooling really worth THIS?.” I thought this concept was crazy stupid. I mean, I LOVE nursing…right?!

Well, HA. HA. HA. Guess what? I’ve definitely got the “new nurse blues.” I’m hoping it’s just a combination of working night shift, eating nothing but crap, laziness, and stress. I’ve been reassured (several, several times) that this too shall pass and, once again, all will be right in my life. And, when that time comes, nursing will be the greatest thing ever. But right now, it sucks. Like, big time.

I think the worst part is working with resident MDs. In my short time as a RN, I have learned so much more than I ever could have imagined. And I continue to learn just as much every single day that I work! However, these residents…WOW. Sometimes, I really…really…really…wonder why I didn’t just become an effing doctor?! There is nothing worse than knowing exactly what your patient needs, but working with a resident who is 1) too afraid to make any decisions on his/her own, or 2) won’t give you what you need, just because they don’t want to admit you are right. UGH. It’s amazing that doctors come out of school with as little knowledge as they do. What do they spend all that time learning?! The amount of frustration sometimes seems unbearable. And on top of that?! I just have to grin and bear it. (Although, every now and then, I do enjoy aggravating the piss out of some of these MDs to get what I want. :D) Anyone who knows me personally, would tell you this is something VERY hard for me to accomplish. I dread going to work most days, and I hate that. I keep telling myself that it will get better. And I hang on to that hope with everything in me.

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Check out that arrogance lobe, this has got to be a doctor I work with! (photo credit to RealityRN.com)

 

Is anyone else out there experiencing this right now? Or have you experienced this? I would really like to know that I’m not alone, and that people aren’t lying when they tell me it won’t last forever.

On a more positive note, I most definitely feel like I am getting the hang of things. As most of you know, the nature of my unit is pretty crazy. However, I still believe have the world’s best co-workers! I have yet to walk into an unknown experience alone. That is just the bee’s knees, if you ask me! The amount of support they provide to me and to each other is incredible. My unit kicks ass and takes names on the daily. Sometimes, that’s the only thing that gets me through.

I’ll stop here, before this post becomes a small novel. I hope you are well, internet. Let me know what’s up!

-Rach

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GRADUATION, SAY WHAA?!

HOLY SHITBALLS, BATMAN.

First of all, I feel like I owe all of my ‘blog friends’ one GIGANTIC apology. I completely disappeared. In fact, for a short while, I’m not even sure I existed in human form. I just wondered around like a wisp and pretended to function. I’m certain every single individual who has attempted/survived nursing school has been in a similar state. Well, guess what peeps?! I CAN SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL! That’s right, bitches. It’s almost over! FOREVER. 

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I might just be a little excited.

I honestly don’t even know where to begin? I haven’t written a post since the end of my very first semester. Wow, how time flies! I have learned so, so much. And I still think that nursing is *totally awesome 90’s kid voice* by far the most awesomest profession, eva! So, let me just give you the down and dirty of everything between then and now. K?

My second semester (Med-surg 2 and Pharm BLAH) was very uneventful really. I just got 2 B’s (which was awesome, because that shat was HARD). I also got married in the middle of that semester. *AWE* Go ahead, it really was sweet. I settled into my teching position pretty quickly and spent the summer working and being married and junk.

My third semester (Peds/OB, Psych, Nursing Research) was also pretty uneventful. Except for psych. Which, don’t get me wrong, I really enjoyed, but I could never, ever, ever do that full time. EVER. My Psych professor was AH-MAZ-ZA-ZING. We became instant friends, and she continues to be a great asset to me as I grow and mature in the academics of the nursing profession. I’ve also never seen anyone who was so amazing at their job. Homie was seriously designed to be a psych nurse. Anywho, Nursing Research was the most ridiculous class I’ve taken thus far and the teacher was a total bi-yatch. Good news? I made it through. Shout out to my peds prof too! She’s still got my back, even though we discovered and (thankfully) she totally embraced my complete awkwardness toward kids. EWW. I finished that semester with straight A’s. BOSS LEVEL! We also had to take the HESI this semester. I was in the top 5 highest scores. HELLZ YEAH!

My fourth semester (Med-surg 3, Public Health, Leadership) is the semester I just completed in the Spring. HOT DAMN. Seriously, guys…I’ve never worked my ass off as much as I did this semester. And the worst part? I had a C in Med-surg right up until the very end, but thankfully I was able to get it up to a B! I have never been so stressed out in my life. The professor (who also happened to be my clinical instructor, awesome. *sarcasm*) was, well…I’m pretty sure she was Satan himself. GRRR, just writing this get my BP up. You know what? Let’s just leave this topic alone. I can’t be nice. Public health was a total joke, but leadership? BAHAHAHA. Waste of brain power right there. Again, jumping through the hoops.

Over the summer, I had the chance to play nurse, basically. I was chosen out of hundreds of applicants for one of 45 spots in a summer internship program at the hospital that I tech in. It was by far the most amazing experience in my student nurse career. If you have the opportunity for an intern/externship of any kind, DO NOT PASS IT UP! I learned so much more in one summer than I have in every clinical combined in nursing school. It was insane in the membrane, friends. I loved it!

ANDDDDD HERE WE ARE.

You are now all caught up! In just 11 short days I will attend my very last first day of undergrad, EVER! I GRADUATE IN DEC! *laser beams, disco ball, confetti* After 6 years, folks…it is FINALLY going to happen. I’m still in shock, really. And, if you’ve made it this far in this post, you’re awesome. Because this is ridiculous. I’m going to try my hardest to update much, much more regularly.

-Rach

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