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Nursing, Betches.

That’s right, guys. The sass is back in action. It’s 0330 on my night off—> real talk coming atcha.

So, a lot of shit has happened since my last post. Let’s catch up.

I took a new job! SAYYY WHAA?! No typo here. You are reading the blog of a new medicine ICU RN. Suck it, nurse recruitment. I still made it. (If you’re lost by that reference, I’m pretty sure I told you all about being forced into my current position. See that post here.) I start my new job in 2 weeks, right after I return from vacay. That was also not a typo. I finally got some vacation time! Here I come 2 patient load…all day, erryday. Oh, except for when they’re singled.

*Fist bumps self*

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Even though I’m obviously very excited about my new position…my heart is breaking to leave my nursey family. I was able to convince one of my work wives to come with me. So, that’s awesome. But…the closer it gets, the more anxious I get. What if these new people hate me? What if they think I’m dumb? What if I really do turn out to be the stereotypical nurse that my unit produces — according to the rest of the hospital, that is?! FREAKING OUT. Also, it kinda sucks to start allll over again. That means, working all the holidays, more weekend shifts, etc. Let’s stop talking about it. I took this job to get my sanity back. At least, that’s what I thought.

My “new nurse blues” have calmed down a bit. I still sleep a lot. Just a part of night shift, I guess. And, I  don’t find myself getting as angry with the residents. Bless their little hearts. However, I have a sneaky suspicion that come July, my frustration will return. Let’s all just hope that doesn’t happen. For my husband’s sake.

Let’s see, what else is new? Oh, yasss…I’m currently awaiting my acceptance (or denial?) letter for an acute care DNP program. I’m going to go with acceptance. Positivity is the key to life, right? Or some other kind of “Confucius say” shit. Whatevs. I’m supposed to find out sometime this week. Next week by the latest. I don’t know whether to laugh or cry. I seriously think I’m losing it. (Hello, Rach? Remember nursing school? You cried every.single.day. of second semester. Do you want a repeat? Did you really love having no free time for friends, family, and fun? Then go ahead. Go back to school, but don’t say I didn’t warn ya. Dammit, Taylor! Always there with your catchy lyrics.) Sorry, I had a moment there.

Internet, I hope life is treating you well. To the nursing students who follow my blog…hang in there! The semester is almost over! To those getting ready to graduate, stay strong. You can do it! Let me know what’s up by leaving a comment. I love to hear from you guys!

-Rach

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The “New Nurse Blues.”

It’s been almost 3 months since my last post.

Time is flying by. Seriously. Slow the eff down.

I don’t know how many of you work in hospitals that have a BSN residency program, so (before I get into anything else) I am going to explain the concept. Basically, I have to meet once a month with all of the other BSN nurses who were hired around the same time to bitch about our jobs. Crazy right? And, I even get paid to do it. It is seriously the biggest. joke. ever. But, whatevs. The true purpose is to support the transition from student to practitioner. So, sometime around our second or third seminar, we discussed the “new nurse blues.” Anyone else familiar with this term? We were told that sometime around the 6 month mark, most graduate nurses start to really reconsider their career choice. They start asking questions like, “Why did I want to do this?”, “Will it ever get any better?”, “When will I feel like I actually know what I’m doing?”, and “Was all that schooling really worth THIS?.” I thought this concept was crazy stupid. I mean, I LOVE nursing…right?!

Well, HA. HA. HA. Guess what? I’ve definitely got the “new nurse blues.” I’m hoping it’s just a combination of working night shift, eating nothing but crap, laziness, and stress. I’ve been reassured (several, several times) that this too shall pass and, once again, all will be right in my life. And, when that time comes, nursing will be the greatest thing ever. But right now, it sucks. Like, big time.

I think the worst part is working with resident MDs. In my short time as a RN, I have learned so much more than I ever could have imagined. And I continue to learn just as much every single day that I work! However, these residents…WOW. Sometimes, I really…really…really…wonder why I didn’t just become an effing doctor?! There is nothing worse than knowing exactly what your patient needs, but working with a resident who is 1) too afraid to make any decisions on his/her own, or 2) won’t give you what you need, just because they don’t want to admit you are right. UGH. It’s amazing that doctors come out of school with as little knowledge as they do. What do they spend all that time learning?! The amount of frustration sometimes seems unbearable. And on top of that?! I just have to grin and bear it. (Although, every now and then, I do enjoy aggravating the piss out of some of these MDs to get what I want. :D) Anyone who knows me personally, would tell you this is something VERY hard for me to accomplish. I dread going to work most days, and I hate that. I keep telling myself that it will get better. And I hang on to that hope with everything in me.

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Check out that arrogance lobe, this has got to be a doctor I work with! (photo credit to RealityRN.com)

 

Is anyone else out there experiencing this right now? Or have you experienced this? I would really like to know that I’m not alone, and that people aren’t lying when they tell me it won’t last forever.

On a more positive note, I most definitely feel like I am getting the hang of things. As most of you know, the nature of my unit is pretty crazy. However, I still believe have the world’s best co-workers! I have yet to walk into an unknown experience alone. That is just the bee’s knees, if you ask me! The amount of support they provide to me and to each other is incredible. My unit kicks ass and takes names on the daily. Sometimes, that’s the only thing that gets me through.

I’ll stop here, before this post becomes a small novel. I hope you are well, internet. Let me know what’s up!

-Rach

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Just call me Nurse Rach!

What. is. up?! my blog peoples! Once again, I am a bold-faced liar. I didn’t update my blog a single time this past semester. Some things never change. I’ll spare you of the “please forgive me…blah, blah, blah…crap”.

Ok, listen up! I have a HUGE announcement to make: I GRADUATED FROM NURSING SCHOOL! Yes, you heard that right. I graduated! There you have it friends, graduating from nursing school is not a myth. Your day will eventually come, I promise! Now, let’s recap these last few months:

The semester was rather uneventful and boring. Lots and lots of busy work, 2 exams, and an exit HESI. Blah! I was placed on a trauma/surgical progressive care unit for my preceptorship. It wasn’t really my cup of tea, but I think that my preceptor had something to do with that. She was super sweet, but our personalities were just so…different (to put it mildly). I learned a lot of “this is something I most definitely do not want to do and/or be in my personal nursing practice” type stuff. No experience is wasted…at least that is what I told myself going into that mess everyday. I did experience my first “OMG, I just walked in to find my patient…dead. WHAT DO I DO?! CODE, CODE, CODE!!!” That was terrifying to say the least.

Once my preceptorship was over, the rest of the semester was smooth sailing. Just busy work and exams. I killed my exit HESI, so that was awesome. I needed a 67 on my final exam to pass the class. Golden. The final came and went. Many celebratory margaritas were had. Me and best friends were happy. Unbelievably, stress-free, care-free—-happy. It was a wonderful feeling! Then there was pinning. Celebrating our accomplishments with our close friends, loved ones, and beloved professors who all shared in not only our joy and triumph, but pain and sorrow. I could do that day over 1,000 times. And finally…GRADUATION. I had been working toward that single event since I left home 6 years ago. It was the proudest day of my life.

Friends, nursing students, nursing student hopefuls—this is for you— Don’t give up. Whether you ended up at my blog because you’ve hopelessly googled something like “nursing school is too much” or you were searching for insight into the unknown, know this…You are smart, you are strong, and you can meet whatever challenge awaits you. Work for it. Live your dream, not everyone gets that opportunity.

-Rach

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P.S.— I’m going to address life after graduation (*cough, cough* NCLEX, etc.) in a separate post. Don’t worry…who could ever forget that?!

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GRADUATION, SAY WHAA?!

HOLY SHITBALLS, BATMAN.

First of all, I feel like I owe all of my ‘blog friends’ one GIGANTIC apology. I completely disappeared. In fact, for a short while, I’m not even sure I existed in human form. I just wondered around like a wisp and pretended to function. I’m certain every single individual who has attempted/survived nursing school has been in a similar state. Well, guess what peeps?! I CAN SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL! That’s right, bitches. It’s almost over! FOREVER. 

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I might just be a little excited.

I honestly don’t even know where to begin? I haven’t written a post since the end of my very first semester. Wow, how time flies! I have learned so, so much. And I still think that nursing is *totally awesome 90’s kid voice* by far the most awesomest profession, eva! So, let me just give you the down and dirty of everything between then and now. K?

My second semester (Med-surg 2 and Pharm BLAH) was very uneventful really. I just got 2 B’s (which was awesome, because that shat was HARD). I also got married in the middle of that semester. *AWE* Go ahead, it really was sweet. I settled into my teching position pretty quickly and spent the summer working and being married and junk.

My third semester (Peds/OB, Psych, Nursing Research) was also pretty uneventful. Except for psych. Which, don’t get me wrong, I really enjoyed, but I could never, ever, ever do that full time. EVER. My Psych professor was AH-MAZ-ZA-ZING. We became instant friends, and she continues to be a great asset to me as I grow and mature in the academics of the nursing profession. I’ve also never seen anyone who was so amazing at their job. Homie was seriously designed to be a psych nurse. Anywho, Nursing Research was the most ridiculous class I’ve taken thus far and the teacher was a total bi-yatch. Good news? I made it through. Shout out to my peds prof too! She’s still got my back, even though we discovered and (thankfully) she totally embraced my complete awkwardness toward kids. EWW. I finished that semester with straight A’s. BOSS LEVEL! We also had to take the HESI this semester. I was in the top 5 highest scores. HELLZ YEAH!

My fourth semester (Med-surg 3, Public Health, Leadership) is the semester I just completed in the Spring. HOT DAMN. Seriously, guys…I’ve never worked my ass off as much as I did this semester. And the worst part? I had a C in Med-surg right up until the very end, but thankfully I was able to get it up to a B! I have never been so stressed out in my life. The professor (who also happened to be my clinical instructor, awesome. *sarcasm*) was, well…I’m pretty sure she was Satan himself. GRRR, just writing this get my BP up. You know what? Let’s just leave this topic alone. I can’t be nice. Public health was a total joke, but leadership? BAHAHAHA. Waste of brain power right there. Again, jumping through the hoops.

Over the summer, I had the chance to play nurse, basically. I was chosen out of hundreds of applicants for one of 45 spots in a summer internship program at the hospital that I tech in. It was by far the most amazing experience in my student nurse career. If you have the opportunity for an intern/externship of any kind, DO NOT PASS IT UP! I learned so much more in one summer than I have in every clinical combined in nursing school. It was insane in the membrane, friends. I loved it!

ANDDDDD HERE WE ARE.

You are now all caught up! In just 11 short days I will attend my very last first day of undergrad, EVER! I GRADUATE IN DEC! *laser beams, disco ball, confetti* After 6 years, folks…it is FINALLY going to happen. I’m still in shock, really. And, if you’ve made it this far in this post, you’re awesome. Because this is ridiculous. I’m going to try my hardest to update much, much more regularly.

-Rach

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1 Down, 4 To Go!

My, my…look at the time! My very first semester of nursing school is a wrap! 0.o My mind is still blown. I haven’t had enough time to absorb the fact that I have no scholarly duties for the next 3ish weeks. I do, however, have some fantastical news to report… I GOT STRAIGHT A’s! Shocked? I know, me too. I didn’t think that was a feat that would ever be accomplished in scary ol’ nursing school. Now that it has been accomplished, I appreciate the fact that I worked so diligently throughout the semester.

I’m almost sad to see this semester pass, but at the same time, I’m so excited to see what the next one holds. My clinical instructor this semester had an impact on my career that will forever be with me. She was wonderful! I’m so very thankful that I ended up with her! I will admit, I was terrified of her at first. She isn’t the most friendly looking person in the world. Have you ever met one of those people who use very, very little to almost NO facial expression while they talk? She was one of those. Very hard to read. Amazingly, she turned out to be an absolute delight! And, to make things even better, she is the instructor for the 10 credit hour lecture/clinical course next semester! Foot in the door? Absolutely. Not to gloat on myself, but she loved me. 😀 How did everyone else’s rotations go? Anything exciting or (dare I even ask…) horrible? I have some great patient stories…seems like I was assigned to all of the turds this semester! Hehe 🙂

I have another tidbit of good news, I FINALLY got a job! I was able to procure a position as a Patient Care Tech at the local hospital. Who has two thumbs and is extremely pumped about this? That’s right, this kid! I have been looking for a PCT/SRNA/CNA position since I became state certified in September of 2010. Not to mention, the money is pretty dang good for this college student. It’s PRN (40 hours a month) and in the pool, so I get to float around to all of the different floors and an entire second hospital. Fun, right? Let’s hope so! I have training the first week of January, so I’ll let you all know how that goes.

Next semester, I’m looking at Pharmacology and Med-Surg II. Sounds peachy! Maybe…I’ve heard some really horrible, terrible horror stories about Pharm. YIKES. That makes me feel a little uneasy, but I had also heard horror stories about Pathophysiology. It turned out to be the easiest class of the semester! These two classes account for 13 credit hours. 13. 0.o We still only have one clinical day a week, but it has gone from 6 hours to 8-9 hours a day. *Fingers Crossed* I get the clinical site I want. 😀 What’s next in the line-up for everyone else?

I guess that’s enough for now. I could go on and on and on about this semester. I am absolutely in love with nursing! It IS the greatest profession ever. EVER. I hope to hear that you all have had a great semester! Anyone have fun plans for the break?

Have a very Merry Christmas, friends! I should be posting pretty regularly over the break, so keep your eyes peeled for some more of this goodness!

-Rach

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Confession.

I have a confession to make. The initial countdown was wrong. *GASP* How could I be so careless?! Actually, I was only off by 1 day. That’s not horrible, right? 4 weeks and 4 days is the correct count. I promise! 🙂

I’m already starting to pep-talk myself for the upcoming semester. Telling myself that I’m going to exercise, eat well, keep on top of my reading, and spend time enjoying my hobbies. I’m not so sure that it’s working! I’ve already started to think about ways I can get out of doing the things that I enjoy the most. Why on earth would I do that? Because I have myself believing that I will no longer have time to eat, sleep, and breathe, let alone actually enjoy something! However, I am aware that you have to have some kind of break from school or you’ll find yourself being the patient for your own clinical group’s psych rotation. I just need to convince myself to get it together! Easier said than done, huh? I think the phrase, “Where there is a will, there is a way” goes here. What do you all plan to use as a stress buster? Anybody got any good tips, exercises, or fun things to help reduce the stress?

Now that we’re all stressed out from thinking about being stressed out, let’s end on a more positive note…

Only two days left until the weekend! WOOHOO! I hope everyone is having a great week!

-Rach

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