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The “New Nurse Blues.”

It’s been almost 3 months since my last post.

Time is flying by. Seriously. Slow the eff down.

I don’t know how many of you work in hospitals that have a BSN residency program, so (before I get into anything else) I am going to explain the concept. Basically, I have to meet once a month with all of the other BSN nurses who were hired around the same time to bitch about our jobs. Crazy right? And, I even get paid to do it. It is seriously the biggest. joke. ever. But, whatevs. The true purpose is to support the transition from student to practitioner. So, sometime around our second or third seminar, we discussed the “new nurse blues.” Anyone else familiar with this term? We were told that sometime around the 6 month mark, most graduate nurses start to really reconsider their career choice. They start asking questions like, “Why did I want to do this?”, “Will it ever get any better?”, “When will I feel like I actually know what I’m doing?”, and “Was all that schooling really worth THIS?.” I thought this concept was crazy stupid. I mean, I LOVE nursing…right?!

Well, HA. HA. HA. Guess what? I’ve definitely got the “new nurse blues.” I’m hoping it’s just a combination of working night shift, eating nothing but crap, laziness, and stress. I’ve been reassured (several, several times) that this too shall pass and, once again, all will be right in my life. And, when that time comes, nursing will be the greatest thing ever. But right now, it sucks. Like, big time.

I think the worst part is working with resident MDs. In my short time as a RN, I have learned so much more than I ever could have imagined. And I continue to learn just as much every single day that I work! However, these residents…WOW. Sometimes, I really…really…really…wonder why I didn’t just become an effing doctor?! There is nothing worse than knowing exactly what your patient needs, but working with a resident who is 1) too afraid to make any decisions on his/her own, or 2) won’t give you what you need, just because they don’t want to admit you are right. UGH. It’s amazing that doctors come out of school with as little knowledge as they do. What do they spend all that time learning?! The amount of frustration sometimes seems unbearable. And on top of that?! I just have to grin and bear it. (Although, every now and then, I do enjoy aggravating the piss out of some of these MDs to get what I want. :D) Anyone who knows me personally, would tell you this is something VERY hard for me to accomplish. I dread going to work most days, and I hate that. I keep telling myself that it will get better. And I hang on to that hope with everything in me.

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Check out that arrogance lobe, this has got to be a doctor I work with! (photo credit to RealityRN.com)

 

Is anyone else out there experiencing this right now? Or have you experienced this? I would really like to know that I’m not alone, and that people aren’t lying when they tell me it won’t last forever.

On a more positive note, I most definitely feel like I am getting the hang of things. As most of you know, the nature of my unit is pretty crazy. However, I still believe have the world’s best co-workers! I have yet to walk into an unknown experience alone. That is just the bee’s knees, if you ask me! The amount of support they provide to me and to each other is incredible. My unit kicks ass and takes names on the daily. Sometimes, that’s the only thing that gets me through.

I’ll stop here, before this post becomes a small novel. I hope you are well, internet. Let me know what’s up!

-Rach

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Just call me Nurse Rach!

What. is. up?! my blog peoples! Once again, I am a bold-faced liar. I didn’t update my blog a single time this past semester. Some things never change. I’ll spare you of the “please forgive me…blah, blah, blah…crap”.

Ok, listen up! I have a HUGE announcement to make: I GRADUATED FROM NURSING SCHOOL! Yes, you heard that right. I graduated! There you have it friends, graduating from nursing school is not a myth. Your day will eventually come, I promise! Now, let’s recap these last few months:

The semester was rather uneventful and boring. Lots and lots of busy work, 2 exams, and an exit HESI. Blah! I was placed on a trauma/surgical progressive care unit for my preceptorship. It wasn’t really my cup of tea, but I think that my preceptor had something to do with that. She was super sweet, but our personalities were just so…different (to put it mildly). I learned a lot of “this is something I most definitely do not want to do and/or be in my personal nursing practice” type stuff. No experience is wasted…at least that is what I told myself going into that mess everyday. I did experience my first “OMG, I just walked in to find my patient…dead. WHAT DO I DO?! CODE, CODE, CODE!!!” That was terrifying to say the least.

Once my preceptorship was over, the rest of the semester was smooth sailing. Just busy work and exams. I killed my exit HESI, so that was awesome. I needed a 67 on my final exam to pass the class. Golden. The final came and went. Many celebratory margaritas were had. Me and best friends were happy. Unbelievably, stress-free, care-free—-happy. It was a wonderful feeling! Then there was pinning. Celebrating our accomplishments with our close friends, loved ones, and beloved professors who all shared in not only our joy and triumph, but pain and sorrow. I could do that day over 1,000 times. And finally…GRADUATION. I had been working toward that single event since I left home 6 years ago. It was the proudest day of my life.

Friends, nursing students, nursing student hopefuls—this is for you— Don’t give up. Whether you ended up at my blog because you’ve hopelessly googled something like “nursing school is too much” or you were searching for insight into the unknown, know this…You are smart, you are strong, and you can meet whatever challenge awaits you. Work for it. Live your dream, not everyone gets that opportunity.

-Rach

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P.S.— I’m going to address life after graduation (*cough, cough* NCLEX, etc.) in a separate post. Don’t worry…who could ever forget that?!

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GRADUATION, SAY WHAA?!

HOLY SHITBALLS, BATMAN.

First of all, I feel like I owe all of my ‘blog friends’ one GIGANTIC apology. I completely disappeared. In fact, for a short while, I’m not even sure I existed in human form. I just wondered around like a wisp and pretended to function. I’m certain every single individual who has attempted/survived nursing school has been in a similar state. Well, guess what peeps?! I CAN SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL! That’s right, bitches. It’s almost over! FOREVER. 

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I might just be a little excited.

I honestly don’t even know where to begin? I haven’t written a post since the end of my very first semester. Wow, how time flies! I have learned so, so much. And I still think that nursing is *totally awesome 90’s kid voice* by far the most awesomest profession, eva! So, let me just give you the down and dirty of everything between then and now. K?

My second semester (Med-surg 2 and Pharm BLAH) was very uneventful really. I just got 2 B’s (which was awesome, because that shat was HARD). I also got married in the middle of that semester. *AWE* Go ahead, it really was sweet. I settled into my teching position pretty quickly and spent the summer working and being married and junk.

My third semester (Peds/OB, Psych, Nursing Research) was also pretty uneventful. Except for psych. Which, don’t get me wrong, I really enjoyed, but I could never, ever, ever do that full time. EVER. My Psych professor was AH-MAZ-ZA-ZING. We became instant friends, and she continues to be a great asset to me as I grow and mature in the academics of the nursing profession. I’ve also never seen anyone who was so amazing at their job. Homie was seriously designed to be a psych nurse. Anywho, Nursing Research was the most ridiculous class I’ve taken thus far and the teacher was a total bi-yatch. Good news? I made it through. Shout out to my peds prof too! She’s still got my back, even though we discovered and (thankfully) she totally embraced my complete awkwardness toward kids. EWW. I finished that semester with straight A’s. BOSS LEVEL! We also had to take the HESI this semester. I was in the top 5 highest scores. HELLZ YEAH!

My fourth semester (Med-surg 3, Public Health, Leadership) is the semester I just completed in the Spring. HOT DAMN. Seriously, guys…I’ve never worked my ass off as much as I did this semester. And the worst part? I had a C in Med-surg right up until the very end, but thankfully I was able to get it up to a B! I have never been so stressed out in my life. The professor (who also happened to be my clinical instructor, awesome. *sarcasm*) was, well…I’m pretty sure she was Satan himself. GRRR, just writing this get my BP up. You know what? Let’s just leave this topic alone. I can’t be nice. Public health was a total joke, but leadership? BAHAHAHA. Waste of brain power right there. Again, jumping through the hoops.

Over the summer, I had the chance to play nurse, basically. I was chosen out of hundreds of applicants for one of 45 spots in a summer internship program at the hospital that I tech in. It was by far the most amazing experience in my student nurse career. If you have the opportunity for an intern/externship of any kind, DO NOT PASS IT UP! I learned so much more in one summer than I have in every clinical combined in nursing school. It was insane in the membrane, friends. I loved it!

ANDDDDD HERE WE ARE.

You are now all caught up! In just 11 short days I will attend my very last first day of undergrad, EVER! I GRADUATE IN DEC! *laser beams, disco ball, confetti* After 6 years, folks…it is FINALLY going to happen. I’m still in shock, really. And, if you’ve made it this far in this post, you’re awesome. Because this is ridiculous. I’m going to try my hardest to update much, much more regularly.

-Rach

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The Verdict is IN!

Remember those reviews I promised? That’s right, they’re finally here! Better late than never, right? You could even look at it this way, everything has now had fair and equal opportunity to prove its worth. (If you’d like to see the original post about the items being reviewed, click here.)

Let’s start with the shoes.

Remember these ugly things?

Friends, I’ll be honest. I wouldn’t give these dreadful things to a pack of starving, stray dogs. They are NOT what they are pumped up to be. They are stiff, hard, hot, and just plain uncomfortable. It’s rather unfortunate that I had to give over $100 to figure that out. Live and learn, I guess. So, I passed them along to someone who really wanted to give them a try and settled for a pair of white, leather AVIAs. They look something like this (just all white, of course! *rolls eyes*):

Even uglier, right?! Go ahead and get over it, because these are SO comfortable! I’m very, very happy (and my feet are too!) that I made the switch! There is no way I could have gone to an 8-9 hour clinical day with those stupid Danskos. -__-

Alright, 1 down…what’s next?  Ah, yes…the watch!

I LOVE THIS WATCH! Sorry, was that too much? This is, by far, the best investment I have made in…a while. It’s super comfy, and adds the perfect amount of personal taste to my otherwise boring uniform. It is made by the company Prestige Medical and I highly recommend it! (For whatever that’s worth. Haha) They come in several colors, too. How fun! 😀

Now for the desk. You see, my desk and I have become great friends. In fact, I’m almost certain that I spent more time with it than I did my fiancé, family, and friends combined. *Raises eyebrow* Anywho, for $60, WOWZA!

I absolutely love this desk! It’s very sturdy, has plenty of storage space, and has the perfect amount of desk top space! The only negative thing I have to say about this desk is: assembly required. Seriously. They weren’t kidding. I could have NEVER put this desk together by myself. NEVER EVER.  It started out as about 2309482309 wooden pieces that were accompanied by vague, almost completely pictorial instructions. Who can put together a 3-dimentional object by looking at a 2-dimentional picture?! C’MON!

Last, but not least, I have to give a little shout-out to my zebra shower curtain. It’s just as glorious as I imagined. ^.^ Well friends, that’s a wrap! If anyone has any specific questions about these items, feel free to ask!

Make sure that you stay tuned, I have plenty of topics to blog about over the break! It’s so hard to decide what to write about first! I hope everyone is having a great week! Only 3 days until Christmas! Did you make the nice list this year? Hehe

– Rach

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Wait, What?!

HOLY CRAP.

Here we are…it’s FALL BREAK. That means my very first semester of nursing school is almost complete. I only have 8 weeks of classes left and then finals week. 8 WEEKS. I’m still amazed that everything seems to be flying by so, so fast!

Let’s catch up, shall we? I just finished my 6th clinical day yesterday and, I must say, it is most definitely my favorite day of the week! So much so, that I still haven’t gotten a full night’s rest on a Tuesday since the semester began! I have dc’d a Foley, attempted an IV (She was a really, REALLY hard stick! Everyone had taken a shot to no avail!), hung several maintenance fluids, pushed Toradol, hung a couple piggybacks (ampicillin and vanc), given lots of po meds, administered a sub q injection, helped anchor some Foley’s, and written a boat load of paperwork. EVERY SINGLE SECOND has been FANTASTIC. I’m just as in love with nursing school as I thought I would be! 😀 I hope that everyone else is having just as much fun! The lecture (Med-Surg) that goes along with clinical is rather informative and enjoyable. The first test went well, I got an A! As for Patho and Health Assessment…not so enjoyable. I can’t say they are horrible, and they are informative, but I’m a hands-on learner. It’s just what I would prefer. My first Patho/Health Assessment exams went well also, I walked away with 2 more A’s. Barely. 😛 Oh, and the math test went well, too! I got an A on it as well.

I spend so much time studying, and that definitely isn’t going to change. However, I have slacked off a bit this week just to give myself a break. After Fall break, I have a paper due and 1 exam a week for the next 3 weeks. So, I felt like to avoid burn-out, I just needed to chill with the studying. What kind of days are you guys putting in? I’m sure they are just a crazy!

Sorry for such a short post, after such a long time away, but I FINALLY have home internet access again so the posting will pick back up! (Note to self: don’t ever wait until after classes have started to activate your internet service in a college town. 3 and 1/2 weeks is far too long to be disconnected from the inter web! LOL) Thanks for those of you who are hanging in with me! I’m off to the rink for some far overdue ice time! 😀 😀

-Rach

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Slow Your Roll, Nursing School!

Oh. My. WOW.

This week has been unbelievably insane. I don’t know how any single human being who works any kind of job or has children/a family to care for makes it through nursing school alive. I haven’t even had time to breathe! THIS IS ONLY THE FIRST WEEK!

So, you might be able to tell, I’m a little stressed out. Ok, more like A LOT stressed out! I have my first exam next week and it’s a dosage calculation exam. We have to pass it with a grade of 80% or higher. If we fail to do so, we cannot pass meds in the clinical setting until we achieve that 80%. If you aren’t successful after 3 tries, you’re out.

Now, I’m not horrible at the math, but I’m not completely comfortable with it either. We just learned IV drip rates on Wednesday. Last semester’s dosage calculation test contained no IV stuff. I made a 100% on that one! I’d love to have a repeat this time around, because that would give my grade a nice boost for the semester. I guess I’ll be spending my weekend working out 23489074579 med math problems! 😛

I also have TONS of reading. I already expected that, so no shock there. I just need to suck it up, and get into the habit of doing it. I really dislike reading. 😐 Anywho, everything else went really well this week! So far, I’m having a blast! I hope all of you are, too!

I think I have decided to quit looking for a job. And those who are pressuring me, *COUGH* mom and dad, can just suck it. I honestly don’t think I could do it. I don’t have enough time in the day to get everything finished now, let alone work a job! I also realized this week, that there is absolutely no way I could have continued to commute the 1 hour and 15 minutes that I have in previous semesters. It’s just such a waste of time that I could be using in other ways. (Like…sleeping, eating, bathing, studying, reading, and did I mention sleeping?!) Thank God that everything has work out in the way that it has! Now, if the 1st could just get here so that I could move! (And turn 22! :D) This first week of driving has worn. me. out!

I hope that everyone has had a fantastic week! Please, please let me know how things went for you guys! I’m sorry I didn’t post sooner, but as you can see, all hell as broken loose! Enjoy your weekend! I’ve got some fun things going on for a change! 😀 One last hoorah with my fiancé (that I REALLY don’t have time for!) before I give up my social life completely!

-Rach

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D-Day.

Well, this. is. it.

It’s 11:30 and I can’t sleep. The anxiety has definitely set in and I’m left wondering, what the crap have I gotten myself into?! I mean, I can do this, right?!

Right.

Good. I just needed some reassurance.

I’ve been going back and forth with my two friends left in the program all day. We are all so excited we can’t stand ourselves! But, at the same time, I think we  just needed to know that we weren’t the only one who felt like they were totally clueless. I feel like I should know more. I’m scared that it’s going to be  expected of me to already know more.

To be honest, I just hope I end up in the right place tomorrow. And I hope I haven’t forgotten anything. STRESSS!

Here’s to the fresh start of a new chapter. May I survive to see another semester!

I hope that you all have a fabulous Monday! Please let me know how your first day went!

-Rach

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Disappointment.

Well, today sucked. I finally got a call to interview for one of about 10 jobs I’ve applied for. It definitely wasn’t what I thought it was going to be. The schedule is pretty erratic and it sort-of imposes on my nursing schedule.

FAIL. I had high hopes. My parents are really pressuring me to work, even though my apartment is paid up for the entire year. It’s really irritating. 😦

I tried to not let that bummer destroy my day, so I went and bought my nursing watch. I love it! Purple is my all time favorite color. It’s perfect. It even has military time around the face!

After I picked up the watch, I went to finish off the deposit for the apartment. I was hoping that they would give me some news on a move in date. Guess what? FAIL. Apparently, they haven’t heard from the current tenant, and he hasn’t turned in the keys. Looks like I’m going to have to wait until the first. Why does that suck? My birthday is the 1st. School starts Monday. Who wants to spend their birthday weekend moving? And who wants to move after school has started? Suckfest.

Hopefully, things will start to look up. I guess I don’t really have a lot to complain about, because so many things have workout thus far. I’m just stressed and anxious to get things over with. I hope everyone is having a better day than I am! I think I need a nap.

-Rach

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The Homestretch.

I’m sure that if you’ve been reading regularly, you’ve picked up on the chaos that has been my life. My posts have been sparse. I’m going to stop apologizing for that. I just can’t help it! LOL

Official Countdown: 6 days. 6 DAYS.

Holy Crap.

Since I last posted, all of my FinAid has been straightened out. THANK GOD. My hair was starting to fall out. The apartment is secured, for the year anyway, and I think I’ve paid for everything that immediately needs to be paid for. Now, just awaiting the phone call to sign the lease and start the moving process. *Fingers crossed* that phone call comes this week!

On to happier, less stressful thoughts. My shoes came in while I was out-of-town last week and I picked up my uniforms yesterday. I’m still dissatisfied with their appearance. They just seem like such an aggravation to wear. The pants feel too big, even though the size smaller was definitely too little. The jacket is just blah, and the polo is way to short to have to be tucked in. I feel like I just flat-out look like a goober. Oh well, it isn’t a fashion show, is it? 😛 I’m also trying to decide on a great nursing watch. I’ve been told we will chart using military time. Greattttt. I’m horrible with military time. I need a watch with a dual face. I’ve found a couple, I just need to make up my mind on which one to get. 😀 I’ve also finished up the majority of my reading assignments. I just hope I can remember what I’ve read. Haha

I’m looking forward to the weekend. Fo’ sho. I’m going to do some mega spending for my apartment. Who doesn’t enjoy that?! I’ll try to post pics of my best finds!

I hope everyone is enjoying this last little bit of freedom! Anybody have fun plans?

Have a great week!

-Rach

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Meltdown Mode.

I’d started to head in to meltdown mode. My financial aid is all screwed up and of course not in a way as to be beneficial for me. The money I was counting on to pay my rent isn’t coming. I thought I had run out of options, but then I thought about a private student loan. CRISIS AVERTED! I was pre-approved by my loaning institution for the amount that I need. Now, I just have to wait for the school to ‘certify’ the loan. Well, that news lead to me freaking out that they would find some reason to deny my loan. In the midst of my panic, I emailed financial aid and explained my situation. The reply I received brought with it some relief. Apparently, they only certify alternative loans once a week and then it will take a couple of weeks to get the money from my loaning institution. The email was so nonchalant. It sounds like it’s no big deal and that I will be approved with no questions. Fingers crossed that’s exactly what that means. BTW- Does anyone else have this much trouble with FinAid? I swear, if it’s not one thing with them, it’s another!

I actually started working on my reading assignments yesterday. WOW. I have forgotten how hard it is to get back into the swing of sitting down and reading for a couple of hours everyday. Slowly but surely, I’m getting into gear. It’s so hard to not just forget about school during my last 2 weeks of freedom! By the way, let’s see where the official countdown is *Flips to Dashboard*: 1 week and 4 days. Hopefully, during this 1 week and 4 days, I can start organizing for the move, finish up the reading, get my shoes in, pick up my uniform, and actually start the moving process. ARG. When I write it all out, it looks more overwhelming than when I just think about it. 😐

I hope that everyone has had/is having a great Hump Day! Only 2 days until the weekend!

-Rach

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