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The “New Nurse Blues.”

It’s been almost 3 months since my last post.

Time is flying by. Seriously. Slow the eff down.

I don’t know how many of you work in hospitals that have a BSN residency program, so (before I get into anything else) I am going to explain the concept. Basically, I have to meet once a month with all of the other BSN nurses who were hired around the same time to bitch about our jobs. Crazy right? And, I even get paid to do it. It is seriously the biggest. joke. ever. But, whatevs. The true purpose is to support the transition from student to practitioner. So, sometime around our second or third seminar, we discussed the “new nurse blues.” Anyone else familiar with this term? We were told that sometime around the 6 month mark, most graduate nurses start to really reconsider their career choice. They start asking questions like, “Why did I want to do this?”, “Will it ever get any better?”, “When will I feel like I actually know what I’m doing?”, and “Was all that schooling really worth THIS?.” I thought this concept was crazy stupid. I mean, I LOVE nursing…right?!

Well, HA. HA. HA. Guess what? I’ve definitely got the “new nurse blues.” I’m hoping it’s just a combination of working night shift, eating nothing but crap, laziness, and stress. I’ve been reassured (several, several times) that this too shall pass and, once again, all will be right in my life. And, when that time comes, nursing will be the greatest thing ever. But right now, it sucks. Like, big time.

I think the worst part is working with resident MDs. In my short time as a RN, I have learned so much more than I ever could have imagined. And I continue to learn just as much every single day that I work! However, these residents…WOW. Sometimes, I really…really…really…wonder why I didn’t just become an effing doctor?! There is nothing worse than knowing exactly what your patient needs, but working with a resident who is 1) too afraid to make any decisions on his/her own, or 2) won’t give you what you need, just because they don’t want to admit you are right. UGH. It’s amazing that doctors come out of school with as little knowledge as they do. What do they spend all that time learning?! The amount of frustration sometimes seems unbearable. And on top of that?! I just have to grin and bear it. (Although, every now and then, I do enjoy aggravating the piss out of some of these MDs to get what I want. :D) Anyone who knows me personally, would tell you this is something VERY hard for me to accomplish. I dread going to work most days, and I hate that. I keep telling myself that it will get better. And I hang on to that hope with everything in me.

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Check out that arrogance lobe, this has got to be a doctor I work with! (photo credit to RealityRN.com)

 

Is anyone else out there experiencing this right now? Or have you experienced this? I would really like to know that I’m not alone, and that people aren’t lying when they tell me it won’t last forever.

On a more positive note, I most definitely feel like I am getting the hang of things. As most of you know, the nature of my unit is pretty crazy. However, I still believe have the world’s best co-workers! I have yet to walk into an unknown experience alone. That is just the bee’s knees, if you ask me! The amount of support they provide to me and to each other is incredible. My unit kicks ass and takes names on the daily. Sometimes, that’s the only thing that gets me through.

I’ll stop here, before this post becomes a small novel. I hope you are well, internet. Let me know what’s up!

-Rach

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Baby Nurse, Reporting for Duty.

So, NO…I’m not a “baby nurse” in the sense that I take care of babies. Peds is certainly not my thing. But, I am a “baby nurse” in the sense that I just survived my third week off of orientation!

I wish I could say no one has died since I’ve been on my own, but that would be a lie. Although, they didn’t die because of something I did/didn’t do, so hooray for that! I have experienced many firsts in these three short weeks of flying solo. They’ve gone something like this…

Week 1:

Remember, my unit cares for all 3 levels of care floor/tele, progressive, and ICU. Well, I got assigned to the ICU! *YASSSS :D* I was pretty pumped about that. I had a great pair, too. I transported my first intubated pt alone (with the RT of course). But, unfortunately my week ended in sadness. Can’t avoid death forever, right? It’s a special privilege to care for someone in their last hours of life. Many good things learned in week 1.

Week 2:

Still in ICU. *YASSSS :D* I’m loving it. Again, super easy pair. This enabled me to help with all of the excitement going on with other pts! The best part about week 2 was realizing where I stand with my fellow RNs. While their pts were crapping out, they were calling on me to help. ME! (They’re crazy, right?!) And they appear to trust my skill and knowledge (VERY BASIC TO SAY THE LEAST) enough to ask my opinion, set-up their drips, and babysit their orientees. Yeah, you read that right. That’s a whole ‘nother can of worms. Anywho, figuring out that you are earning your way into the gang is the best feeling ever. I love my co-workers and my unit!

Week 3:

Progressive care. Ok, not bad. 3 pts. I can do this. Worst part about this week was following the same nurse all three nights. She left me in a shitty mess every night. Empty IV bags, wrong fluids hanging, drips still running that were cancelled hours and hours ago, labs not drawn, etc. UGH. I know I’m new, but I hate that shit just as much as everyone else. I’m that nurse who goes in and hangs all new bags and changes all old lines, checks/cleans up all orders, cleans up the pt’s rooms, turns/fluffs/stuffs/pain medicates, and makes sure all dressings have been changed at shift change. Isn’t that what you do for your fellow nurse? Maybe that’s just the newbie in me?

This week, I also experienced my first “something is wrong, but I don’t know what” nursey moment. I wish I could tell the story, but I’m always afraid in some shape, form, or fashion I’ll violate HIPAA. Being a new nurse is so hard! My fabulous co-workers were very supportive, both during the incident and after. Of course, I was feeling guilty. Like I didn’t do enough. And now, I’m realizing the limitations of being “green”. My co-workers saw my defeat and really picked me up. It felt good to be told, “See! You were right! You’re a good little nurse, you did what you could. You tried so hard, I know you did.” Seriously, they’re the greatest. 😀 Thankfully, this wasn’t a life or death issue, but there was a life-altering outcome. *Sigh* Have any of you had an experience like this yet? How did you deal?

Exciting stuff right?! 😛 Now that I’m settling into a routine, I feel like things are going really great. The sense of doom that once surrounded my nurse duties has morphed into an attitude of “deal with it!”. I no longer feel like I can’t do this. I can do this, and I might even be decent at it!

Until next time,

-Rach

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GRADUATION, SAY WHAA?!

HOLY SHITBALLS, BATMAN.

First of all, I feel like I owe all of my ‘blog friends’ one GIGANTIC apology. I completely disappeared. In fact, for a short while, I’m not even sure I existed in human form. I just wondered around like a wisp and pretended to function. I’m certain every single individual who has attempted/survived nursing school has been in a similar state. Well, guess what peeps?! I CAN SEE THE LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL! That’s right, bitches. It’s almost over! FOREVER. 

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I might just be a little excited.

I honestly don’t even know where to begin? I haven’t written a post since the end of my very first semester. Wow, how time flies! I have learned so, so much. And I still think that nursing is *totally awesome 90’s kid voice* by far the most awesomest profession, eva! So, let me just give you the down and dirty of everything between then and now. K?

My second semester (Med-surg 2 and Pharm BLAH) was very uneventful really. I just got 2 B’s (which was awesome, because that shat was HARD). I also got married in the middle of that semester. *AWE* Go ahead, it really was sweet. I settled into my teching position pretty quickly and spent the summer working and being married and junk.

My third semester (Peds/OB, Psych, Nursing Research) was also pretty uneventful. Except for psych. Which, don’t get me wrong, I really enjoyed, but I could never, ever, ever do that full time. EVER. My Psych professor was AH-MAZ-ZA-ZING. We became instant friends, and she continues to be a great asset to me as I grow and mature in the academics of the nursing profession. I’ve also never seen anyone who was so amazing at their job. Homie was seriously designed to be a psych nurse. Anywho, Nursing Research was the most ridiculous class I’ve taken thus far and the teacher was a total bi-yatch. Good news? I made it through. Shout out to my peds prof too! She’s still got my back, even though we discovered and (thankfully) she totally embraced my complete awkwardness toward kids. EWW. I finished that semester with straight A’s. BOSS LEVEL! We also had to take the HESI this semester. I was in the top 5 highest scores. HELLZ YEAH!

My fourth semester (Med-surg 3, Public Health, Leadership) is the semester I just completed in the Spring. HOT DAMN. Seriously, guys…I’ve never worked my ass off as much as I did this semester. And the worst part? I had a C in Med-surg right up until the very end, but thankfully I was able to get it up to a B! I have never been so stressed out in my life. The professor (who also happened to be my clinical instructor, awesome. *sarcasm*) was, well…I’m pretty sure she was Satan himself. GRRR, just writing this get my BP up. You know what? Let’s just leave this topic alone. I can’t be nice. Public health was a total joke, but leadership? BAHAHAHA. Waste of brain power right there. Again, jumping through the hoops.

Over the summer, I had the chance to play nurse, basically. I was chosen out of hundreds of applicants for one of 45 spots in a summer internship program at the hospital that I tech in. It was by far the most amazing experience in my student nurse career. If you have the opportunity for an intern/externship of any kind, DO NOT PASS IT UP! I learned so much more in one summer than I have in every clinical combined in nursing school. It was insane in the membrane, friends. I loved it!

ANDDDDD HERE WE ARE.

You are now all caught up! In just 11 short days I will attend my very last first day of undergrad, EVER! I GRADUATE IN DEC! *laser beams, disco ball, confetti* After 6 years, folks…it is FINALLY going to happen. I’m still in shock, really. And, if you’ve made it this far in this post, you’re awesome. Because this is ridiculous. I’m going to try my hardest to update much, much more regularly.

-Rach

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1 Down, 4 To Go!

My, my…look at the time! My very first semester of nursing school is a wrap! 0.o My mind is still blown. I haven’t had enough time to absorb the fact that I have no scholarly duties for the next 3ish weeks. I do, however, have some fantastical news to report… I GOT STRAIGHT A’s! Shocked? I know, me too. I didn’t think that was a feat that would ever be accomplished in scary ol’ nursing school. Now that it has been accomplished, I appreciate the fact that I worked so diligently throughout the semester.

I’m almost sad to see this semester pass, but at the same time, I’m so excited to see what the next one holds. My clinical instructor this semester had an impact on my career that will forever be with me. She was wonderful! I’m so very thankful that I ended up with her! I will admit, I was terrified of her at first. She isn’t the most friendly looking person in the world. Have you ever met one of those people who use very, very little to almost NO facial expression while they talk? She was one of those. Very hard to read. Amazingly, she turned out to be an absolute delight! And, to make things even better, she is the instructor for the 10 credit hour lecture/clinical course next semester! Foot in the door? Absolutely. Not to gloat on myself, but she loved me. 😀 How did everyone else’s rotations go? Anything exciting or (dare I even ask…) horrible? I have some great patient stories…seems like I was assigned to all of the turds this semester! Hehe 🙂

I have another tidbit of good news, I FINALLY got a job! I was able to procure a position as a Patient Care Tech at the local hospital. Who has two thumbs and is extremely pumped about this? That’s right, this kid! I have been looking for a PCT/SRNA/CNA position since I became state certified in September of 2010. Not to mention, the money is pretty dang good for this college student. It’s PRN (40 hours a month) and in the pool, so I get to float around to all of the different floors and an entire second hospital. Fun, right? Let’s hope so! I have training the first week of January, so I’ll let you all know how that goes.

Next semester, I’m looking at Pharmacology and Med-Surg II. Sounds peachy! Maybe…I’ve heard some really horrible, terrible horror stories about Pharm. YIKES. That makes me feel a little uneasy, but I had also heard horror stories about Pathophysiology. It turned out to be the easiest class of the semester! These two classes account for 13 credit hours. 13. 0.o We still only have one clinical day a week, but it has gone from 6 hours to 8-9 hours a day. *Fingers Crossed* I get the clinical site I want. 😀 What’s next in the line-up for everyone else?

I guess that’s enough for now. I could go on and on and on about this semester. I am absolutely in love with nursing! It IS the greatest profession ever. EVER. I hope to hear that you all have had a great semester! Anyone have fun plans for the break?

Have a very Merry Christmas, friends! I should be posting pretty regularly over the break, so keep your eyes peeled for some more of this goodness!

-Rach

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Books, and Uniforms, and Homework! Oh My!

My nursing school pals and I decided to team up on the dreaded book hunt to help each other find the best deals. College text books can really put the squeeze on your wallet, but nursing text books take ‘the squeeze’ to a whole new level! Luckily for me, I kept 5 out of the 7 that we were required to purchase last semester. Why does that make me lucky? Because all 5 of those textbooks are required again this semester! WOOHOO! Unfortunately, I still have to purchase a few for the upcoming semester. In fact, I already purchased my med-surg book(s). I do have some reading to get done. BLAH! Including the med-surg book, I should only have to spend about $300.00 to get what I need. Up until this last semester, I rented my books. That helped me save a ton of money! The best, and I mean BEST, place to get textbooks is Chegg. I have saved SO MUCH MONEY through these guys! Not to mention, the customer service is excellent and they plant a tree every time you make a purchase. 🙂 I mean, it must be good if I’m willing to brag about it and they aren’t even paying me, right?! Does anyone already have all of their books, if so, where do you get them? I feel like I should have them all, since I do already have homework, but I just don’t want to go that far yet. There’s still just a tiny bit of summer hanging on!

Moving on…

You all already know about my uniform situation, but plans on when and where to meet have been finalized with my peeps and all systems are go! I’m rather relieved that our uniform expenses aren’t as outrageous as our other required items. *Cough, cough* $15 dollar NAME TAG! I still can’t manage to get over that one. And then there’s the homework. I’m on summer vacation and I have homework! My new friend Gertie (HOLLA! :P) posted a DA–Dimensional Analysis–problem and asked for my two cents…lets just say that it took me a little while to find my bearings! It was a good wake up call that I need to dust of the ol’ brain and get to studying! Thanks for that little kick in the tush, Gertie!

I hope everyone is having a fantastic week!

-Rach

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